Phobia or Waiting?

Was online and chatted w S jus now.. He wans to meetup this weekend but I told him dat I'm doin dad's death anniversary... Reason being, to pass me my bday pressie...

He said he ordered the 4S from US... And will exchange w my 4... Den I told him to keep it for himself.. Cos its too pricey a gift.. And I will feel bad, like I'm taking advantage of him...

He said I'm silly and whether he pampered me too much even thou I'm not even anybody to him... I jus replied: "haha"...

Is it a phobia from my past, or I'm still waiting..? Sigh..